His Journey’s Just Begun

Don’t think of him as gone away-

     his journey has just begun,

    life holds so many facets -

     this earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting

    from the sorrow and the tears

   in a place of warmth and comfort

   where there  are no days and years.

Think how much he must be wishing

   that we could know today 

   how nothing but our sadness

    can really pass away.

And think of him as living

   in the hearts of those he touched…

   for nothing loved is ever lost -

   and he was loved so much. 

                      E. Brenneman.

On January 7, 2010 my dear husband went on  to  be with the Lord.   As many of you know he has been suffering with renal failure, diabetes, heart failure  and just not feeling good at all.  He had a long struggle with his quality of life for the past year or two.  His body has been ravaged by the effects of these illnesses and he was worn out.   In a matter of three hours he was gone from us, way too quickly, way too soon.  I miss him so much.  After 38 years plus, we have been together and now he is not here.  It is so quiet, so lonely.  There is no noise in the house.  After an intense  past few months with even making sure he was breathing EVERY day, and taking care of him, now there is no purpose to my life.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not being morbid or self destructing by any means but the emptiness is overwhelming at times.  I want to tell him something but he is not there.  I told him when I last saw him at the funeral, that I would be talking to him and I have. 

It has been 12 days and each day is a little better .  I came to the realization yesterday that now I have to  do things that make me happy.  I have to get out of any kind of rut I am in or might get into and  move on inch by inch every day.  I will be going back to work tomorrow so that will  get my mind on different things. 

The poem above says so much and  came on a card that my cousin Cathy sent to me and made me cry but is so sweet and true.  Thanks Cathy. 

His  journey has just begun and so has mine.  We will both be starting a new path and he will always be in my heart. 

Thank you for letting me tell my story and  wish me luck on my new journey, always with him  by my side.

As always, Sherie