Monday, January 18, 2010

His Journey’s Just Begun

Don’t think of him as gone away-

     his journey has just begun,

    life holds so many facets -

     this earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting

    from the sorrow and the tears

   in a place of warmth and comfort

   where there  are no days and years.

Think how much he must be wishing

   that we could know today 

   how nothing but our sadness

    can really pass away.

And think of him as living

   in the hearts of those he touched…

   for nothing loved is ever lost -

   and he was loved so much. 

                      E. Brenneman.

On January 7, 2010 my dear husband went on  to  be with the Lord.   As many of you know he has been suffering with renal failure, diabetes, heart failure  and just not feeling good at all.  He had a long struggle with his quality of life for the past year or two.  His body has been ravaged by the effects of these illnesses and he was worn out.   In a matter of three hours he was gone from us, way too quickly, way too soon.  I miss him so much.  After 38 years plus, we have been together and now he is not here.  It is so quiet, so lonely.  There is no noise in the house.  After an intense  past few months with even making sure he was breathing EVERY day, and taking care of him, now there is no purpose to my life.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not being morbid or self destructing by any means but the emptiness is overwhelming at times.  I want to tell him something but he is not there.  I told him when I last saw him at the funeral, that I would be talking to him and I have. 

It has been 12 days and each day is a little better .  I came to the realization yesterday that now I have to  do things that make me happy.  I have to get out of any kind of rut I am in or might get into and  move on inch by inch every day.  I will be going back to work tomorrow so that will  get my mind on different things. 

The poem above says so much and  came on a card that my cousin Cathy sent to me and made me cry but is so sweet and true.  Thanks Cathy. 

His  journey has just begun and so has mine.  We will both be starting a new path and he will always be in my heart. 

Thank you for letting me tell my story and  wish me luck on my new journey, always with him  by my side.

As always, Sherie



  1. I am very sorry to hear this. I know he's in a better place now. I will be praying for you.

    Laura (used to come in Peddlers a lot)

  2. Dear Sherie,
    I don't have the words to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I found out last week from Tammy and have had you in my thoughts and prayers ever since.
    Please let me know if I can do anything........


  3. Sheri, I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I had the proper words to make you feel better but only time will ease the pain. God brought you to this point and he will get you through it. Your blog friends are here also to help you as much as we can. Call on us anytime! Prayers and hugs to you.

  4. Oh Sherie, My heart is just breaking for you. I am so so sorry about your profound loss. I can't imagine what you are dealing with but I am sure your new journey will be filled with highs and lows. You are so wise to know you need to do things that please you.

    Pleaee post anytime you need a virtual hug. We are here for you!!

    Hugs, Linda

  5. Dear Sherie,
    God bless you at this time. My heart breaks for you.

  6. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I hope you can hold your head up and find your new direction. We are sure all out here for you to talk to, Dawn

  7. so sorry to hear about your husband. that must have been hard. i lost a very dear friend this month. we shareda love of reading and i still catch myself thinking "oh'linda would love this book". god bless you,denise

  8. So truly sorry to hear of this news. I'll be thinking of you and praying for your new journey. Take one day at a time. I've been there and I don't have any simple easy answers.

  9. I am so sorry to read of your loss. He sounds like a very good man. I wish I knew why the good ones are taken way too soon and the bad ones remain here. I am sorry that you both had to suffer so much and hope that you both will now be free of pain and sadness. I am sure that he is waiting for you to arrive; not too soon though, we need you here!!! All our love from Merrie and the bullies!

  10. Sherie - just know there is always someone here for you. Take of yourself in every way.

  11. HI Sheri - Sweetie I was just thinking about you & thought I would check your blog. Oh honey I'm so sorry to hear about your hubby. My prayers are with you & your family members. HUGs always, Deb

  12. Sherie,
    My heart hurts for you.. I have been married for 36 years now, so I can only imagine the loss you feel every second of the day. I am here in blog land.. baby steps, my friend...

  13. Sherie,

    My heart goes out to you. I can't imagine what you are feeling but I have felt a lot of what you were feeling before. My husband has also suffered from kidney and heart issues. It's so scary to think about him not being there. Your post touched me and I want you to know if you ever need to talk I am here as well as all of your blog friends.


  14. Just found your blog and was reading back posts. I pray you will continue to gain strength and continue on this new journey of life with God by your side every day.